hi.

is this always it.
and breaking old ground has a painful sound.
goes right through your emotional eardrum
a ripping, and ragged edges are there like your old denims.
frayed and soft, but lacking the blood from shredded appendages.
you feel sick for some time. Then wonderful sleep comes.
some sort of a glorious feeling at the end.
ground has been broken, I’ll start sifting through them
I might still find some old things to be useful or
just to be salvaged because of the sheer sentimentality
leaking from them

somewhen1.6

I am the haze again, immaterial and wet barely.
even there.
a ghost would have been better.

Ohh.

I have been down before, even when upside was the
ground floor.
yes, down. Now I am way through basement three.
way way down below.

Like never there at all.

a haze and nothing more. And your hands can go through me like they were
superheated piano strings through butter.

I am scattered again. Dislocation was better. Way better.

and I can see the sun from twelve floors up
I suddenly want the night. And rain rain. Rain.

the sun will burn me up. And I will go nowhere

somewhen1.5

mamaya makikita ko na ang araw. na naman.
ikaw na munang laman ng isip ko ngayong mga ilang minuto,
nakakatanga ang ginagawa ko.
magagamit ko imagination ko sa yo, para makapahinga naman.
oo, bangag na rin ako. pero may salamin naman.
musta na mga mata, may bago ka na?
i mean salamin. tawagan kaya kita pag sweldo.
marinig lang tawa mo.
o hello, kung pacute o babaeng babae ba.
o weird pa rin, but that right kind of weird.
parang ilong na hindi matangos pero hindi naman pango.
parang, parang lahat na bagay na gusto ko munang pag-isipan ngayong oras. na isa ka na dun, na isa na ang boses mo.

isa pa rin kung kalamig dito sa The Fort kung tatakbo ka
sa gitna ng kalsada na walang damit ngayong oras.
at isa pa kung anong maramramdaman ko kung matutulog ako
dun sa luma kong kama sa Naga.
o kung may yumayakap sa kin ngayong oras
at nilalamig ako sa aircon.
dami. dami pala. pero maganda yung hello mo.
at sana di ka malungkot. ngayong araw.